Tough decisions

Tomorrow is the Go! St. Louis Marathon and Half Marathon. Last year this race nearly consumed my life, but this year I’m not running either race.
It was a really tough decision and I’m still not sure if it was the right one. After an amazing marathon in New Orleans, it did occur to me that I could take a couple easy weeks, do a few 16 plus mile long runs with hills and have a good shot of actually making the time cutoff this year if I could just stay strong mentally. Or I could do some maintenance mileage and run a good half. But I opted not to and to start focusing on triathlons more.
Shifting my focus has been very difficult. I wrote a pretty ambitious training schedule for my May 1st triathlon and wanted to focus a lot on the bike, but the past few weeks I’ve had some major burnout and trouble following my schedule. And to say that I’ve spent the time I was going to spend on the bike would be a complete joke. I really do not enjoy the bike as much as swimming and running, and it really shows with my training.
So now I sit here wondering if I made the wrong decision. I know that next year I want to run the full at Go! so I can prove to myself that I have overcome that race. I also want to race a Half Ironman this year (September), but I know I need to get out of this funk that I am in. For the first time in a long time, I can’t decide what my goals should be now.